Remember Me

I wrote REMEMBER ME from my bed on the floor of a laundry room in the second story of a Connecticut farmhouse. It was 6 AM on the morning of my sister Gretel’s wedding. The house was brimming with family and not enough bedrooms, so my sister, Megan, and I had claimed this tiny alcove with the washer and dryer to be our sanctuary. It had a door and two windows from which we could watch fireflies.

I woke up before the rest of the household, having maximized the number of hours three couch pillows wedged together with a baby crib mattress on the floor can pass comfortably for a bed. I was thinking about my sweetheart, separated from each other for the first time, all the way across the states from me, and this idea for a song began.

Songs can be gifts in moments like these. They can also be a total pain.

I had no paper, no pen, and no desire to rummage through the rest of the rental and risk waking everyone.  Remember me, remember me…the line kept teasing me, taunting both my feelings about being so far from the one I loved and the fact that I had no way to record the idea for this song.

Remember me. My last night with my sweetheart had been filled with emotion. Remember me. I didn’t want to leave, but then I also couldn’t stay because I had to catch a flight to my sister’s wedding. Remember me. I had wanted to stay. I wanted to tell him in some way that whatever he was going through, however difficult it was, however lost he felt, that he wasn’t stranded or alone. That whatever emotional mire pulled him under, I would follow him down into the depths and that I would wrap my arms around him and carry him swiftly, far from the darkness. I would anchor him in my embrace again and again and again.

I looked at Megan. Eyes closed, still asleep on her baby crib mattress and hoping to sleep for at least another four hours.

Remember me.

Megan is a Lady Crooner. I knew, even if it was excruciating in that moment, that she’d understand the long-term pay off of capturing this song. I knew that I wouldn’t have to say much more than, “I have a song that I need to record, can I use your phone, please?” that she would be obliging. Megan is just that kind of gal.

Megan managed a blurry smile when I woke her. She even typed in her password because I fail miserably at such things and set me up with the sound recorder app. Then she took a few extra pillows from my side of the nest, before rolling over and making it perfectly clear she was unavailable for further conversation.

I recorded the song in one murmured/whispery take, modified the lyrics at breakfast, and set it to music with Joseph while we were rehearsing for our sister’s ceremony.

It was a beautiful wedding. It is a beautiful song. For me, REMEMBER ME, will always be a song of longing, fireflies, my first East Coast summer night, and an uncomfortable bed on a laundry room floor shared with the most understanding sister in the world. It is also a testament to true love.

REMEMBER ME

Love, hold me near
Time closes in on the hour we fly from here
Love, close your eyes
I long to stay with you more than we both realize
Though parting was never so sweet
It’s your love that makes me complete
Hold me tight
This one more night

And I will follow you down love
And I will ask the wind
To carry you swiftly far from here
And bring you back to my arms once again

Love, whispering
Close to the nape of my neck against my skin
And as we come to our final goodbyes
I’ll treasure the look in your eyes
Remember me
Remember me

And I will follow you down, love
And I will ask the wind
To carry you swiftly far from here
And bring you back to my arms once again

Love, have no fears
I leave with a longing
And know we will meet again here

And I will follow you down, love
And I will ask the wind
To carry you swiftly far from here
And bring you back to my arms once again

And I will follow you down, love
And I will ask the wind
To carry you swiftly far from here
And bring you back to my arms once again
And bring you back to my arms once again
And bring you back to my arms once again

I Write About Love

I write about love.

It took me a while to admit. But pretty much every song in our repertoire with the exception of one is about love. And even that watery decent into the deep chasm on an unforgiving river could arguably be about love.

I am preoccupied with the theme. Love. So connected to loss. So nuanced with hope. So universal. Love is something all of us have experienced—in abundance, in absence, in longing, in loss. In the average day to day.

For me to write a song, I’m usually so overwhelmed with an experience or feeling that I need to get it out. The compulsion to process my truth bares its self as melody, a series of notes which I don’t know how to transcribe to a page, so I hum them into a sound recorder.

Melody couples with words, forming ideas to shape the soundscape. It’s free styling to the theme of my life.  And that is the song. I take my most personal, intimate, overwhelming experiences and distill them into a story that belongs to everyone.

SWEETHEART is about love. Obviously.

Not the love that prevailed in our second album, THE SURFACE, but the type of love that makes us want to do great things.

It’s one of those songs that could so easily be too syrupy sweet to want to swallow. It’s a lot easier to write a sad love song without losing integrity or making listeners cringe. I cringe when listening to some lyrics. There’s a lot of overly-sentimental stuff out there.

The trick to it, I believe, is being honest. Being authentic. Being true to my experiences and true to my heart.

At the time this song came to me, I was falling in love but resisting. I was pulled by the urge to give over everything, to revel in the newness, forgoing shyness and decorum, and to tell my sweetheart I was unquestionably his with complete abandon.

I wrote my heart out as a song. The timing was probably a little better that way.

And now, sweethearts, this song is for you.

–Nadia

I want to call you my sweetheart
I would rock you willingly
Want to carry you far, far away
Want to keep you near to me

I want to answer all your questions
Without saying a thing
Want to kiss you in the daylight
Just to know I still exist

I want to call you my sweetheart
I would rock you willingly
Want to carry you far, far away
Want to keep you near to me

I want to tell you that I love you
But right now’s just too soon
For no words can describe
What my world is going through

I want to call you my sweetheart
I would rock you willingly
Want to carry you far, far away
Want to keep you near to me

I want to come home to you
Let me be home with you
‘cause my home’s with you
With you

Want to romance you tender
Want to fall real hard
Want to totally surrender
Want to give you all my heart

I want to call you my sweetheart
I would rock you willingly
Want to carry you far, far away
Want to keep you near to me

I want to call you my sweetheart
I would rock you willingly
Want to carry you far, far away
Want to keep you near to me
Want to carry you far, far away
Want to keep you near to me

I want to come home to you
Let me be home with you
‘cause my home’s with you
With you